Oh What A World

The 75 day drought has ended. We finally got a little rain today, even if it lasted for only five minutes. Sad, but what can you do. It's been a sad day. More of that to come later...

( My thoughts on American TV. Long. )

Today was a low-key day. For some reason, I really missed Stephen today. I felt like it would have been one of the days I would have called him to go to a movie or go to Blockbuster to rent a movie, and we wouldn't have necessarily talked, but just being with him would have been comforting. I'm glad I have a brother like that, even if he lifeis on the other side of the world.

So instead I watched baseball. I guess that's one good thing about the baseball season. There's a game on every day. When all else fails, there's always baseball. And Cleveland beat the Yankees on a pinch-hit home run. HA. How good does that feel. And the Diamondbacks beat the Phillies. This is why loyalty pays off, my friends. Your heart may hurt at the worst of times, but when your team finally comes through, it feels oh so good. If only my happiness really did hinge on how the Indians fared. It turns out that as happy as both of those wins make me, I'm still left wanting.

Well, I'm going to go read, and take Shodan outside...I think I could use some air.

I spent some quality time with my mom today as it was Cinco de Mayo. We don't really have much money, but I still wanted to do something, seeing as it is part of our heritage, so I suggested Cristina's for dinner, and she suggested Corona's with lime to celebrate afterwards. I really, really don't like beer, and it was my first Corona ever. But we put in lots of lime, so my first few sips I couldn't even taste any beer..just the acid of the lime. Towards the end of the bottle though, I remembered why I had suggested margaritas instead.

We had fun though. I reminded her you need four squares of chocolate for brownies instead of two, which she had used in her last attempt to make brownies, which unfortunately for her failed miserably (I will say though she usually does succeed). And once she got them in the oven we got our Coronas and sat down to watch some baseball on TV. (And the Diamondbacks lost again...badly). I almost felt like a middle-aged man with a beer belly, but really I am quite the opposite. It was ironic, really. But I guess, if I can't be at Chase field, watching from home is the next best thing.

I also went on a mini-cleaning spree today, after I saw that Goliath had peed in my mom's bathtub. I rinsed out the tub, but the smell still lingered, so I decided to wage a full scale war on the bathroom. And once I cleaned her bathroom, I cleaned Annie's too. While I was at the store today I asked my mom to buy me a pumice bar so I can really get everything I missed today. I have become a cleaning phenom. You know what? I think I have seen that Gilette Fusion Phenom commercial one too many times.

Well, I think I'm off to read some while I wait for Annie to come home.

I'm just watching Sports Center while waiting for Brothers & Sisters to come on, and they're talking about Eight Belles and the Kentucky Derby. Every time that story comes up or every time I read a story about her, I either tear up or start crying. And then there's the story of the girl who hit the home run over the wall, tore a ligament while rounding first base, and the opposing team carried her around the bases so she could have her home run even though they lost the game because of it. What a story.

It's when I think about things like these when I realize that things like having to deal with Goliath peeing on my chair really is rather inconsequential. What would I do if I had to have him euthanized? And he's not even my cat. Or..if I was on that opposing team, would I have acted the same? I'd like to think so, but all the same, just thinking about what an amazing story that is just makes me appreciate how small my problems really are.

Well, Cleveland lost again today. I might give up on sports altogether. Liverpool lost in the UEFA Champions league semifinal for the first time in four tries. The Suns lost in the first round. If I didn't live in Arizona I wouldn't feel attached to the D'backs at all, but fortunately I do. Unfortunately, I don't really like the NL. All that to say, none of my sports teams are doing well, and it's kind of depressing. Luckily the baseball season is very long, so hopefully Cleveland can get its act together. And I still have regular TV. And Top Chef.

I have to go do laundry before my show starts.

Sometimes I think that we are all so very awkward.

Hooray for good friends and good conversations. Nancy, Erin, Chase, and Amber...all in the same day. I can't wait to be back at Hillsdale.

If only everything in life was so simple.

Have I really changed this much? I've always been relatively easy to sort. Apparently not.


( New sorting hat test )

I just have to say. And this is all I have to say...last night I finished re-reading the Half-Blood Prince, and I am just NOT AT ALL ready for the series to be over. I'm just not.

HARRY POTTER WAS in-CREDIBLE!!!


Sure, I do have a list of things to complain about but that will come later (and actually, there are a number of things... Keep in mind I finished re-reading the 5th book about two hours before the movie started though). But it's 3:26 am, I'm shaking for who knows what reason and I need sleep. So for now the rush of good feelings will overcome these little discrepancies I have with the film. :)

Oh I love you, Order of the Phoenix.

HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY EVERYONE!!!

I'm generally not a big fourth of July person, because they tend to be bad holidays for me. HOWEVER, this year is looking different. Soon my sister is going to come pick me up for a pool party, and then later I'm going to watch fireworks at Tempe Town Lake with my mom. Maybe Stephen will even come up. I hope he can.

Well, I'm off. It's noon and Annie should be here soon. Have a fun day everyone. Enjoy the fireworks. :)

I'm currently uploading the rest of my music library...who knows if I'll finish today or not. This week has been rather nice. I saw both Evan Almighty and Disturbia, have aided the process of getting Nancy addicted to Grey's, finished the fourth Harry Potter, and have been thoroughly enjoying my new computer. It's quite fabulous. It's nice to think I'll no longer have to walk up the hill carrying a heavy laptop. Oh it's nice. I am happy with it.

So Evan Almighty was hilarious. Steve Carell is Steve Carell, but I think the funniest person was his secretary/assistant person. She was a scream. And Disturbia was, well, creepy. It was good though. I jumped, as you all can imagine. Nancy thought I might have had a heart attack. But I liked it a lot.

So I think I'm going up to Phoenix tomorrow. And all I know is that I'll have to be back down in Tucson before the 9th, which is when my long-awaited neurologist appointment is. But I think I have imposed upon the Hankel family long enough. Maybe when I come back I'll stay with the Crays, since my Uncle does not want me. We'll see.


Tomorrow would be my grandmother's 95th birthday. Sometimes I really miss her.

I'm currently ripping all my music to my new computer. It feels excellent. It's going to take forever though. I'm sure that there is some better, more efficient way to do this, but I've found that I tend to like doing things the hard way. My iTunes is up and running, and since I'm starting over I've chosen just not to import all the stuff I no longer listen to. It's such a good feeling.

Staying with Nancy has been great, too. I think tonight she, Lorna, Katie, and I are going to go out to dinner and a movie and have a girl's night out. It's been a while since I've done that.

And I'm gaining weight, too. So surprisingly, things are looking up for once. I'm kind of excited and I hope things stay that way.

Now I just need to work on the emotional health. I'll be okay though, I think. At least I hope so. And I have a few things to look forward to in the next month, so life is good. At least for the moment. And I've got to live in that.

Scattergories...it's harder than it looks!

Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following. They have to be real places, names, things...nothing made up! Try to use different answers if the person in front of you had the same 1st initial. You CAN'T use your name for the boy/girl name question.

What is your name:
Donna

Famous Artist/Band/Musician:
death cab

4 letter word:
dope

Vehicle:
dodge durango (I'm good)

TV Show:
Dateline

City:
Detroit, MI

Boy Name:
Daniel

Girl Name:
Diane

Alcoholic drink:
daquiri

Something you wear:
denim

Celebrity:
Donnie Darko. (Ha. Does that count?) okay then David Duchovny

Food:
dessert

Something found in a kitchen:
dirty dishes

Reason for Being Late:
detention

Cartoon Character:
Daffy Duck

Something You Shout:
damn it

I'm tired of fighting the way other people want me to fight. I'm tired of fighting for other people. So I'm going to fight for myself. I'm going to believe in myself, and believe that there's some other way, some better way out there. I'm going to fight like hell. It may be the hard way, but hey, my life has never been easy.

And this, this is all I'm going to say about this. I'm tired of trying to help people (or make them) understand. There's no way you can. So I've accepted that, and this is what I'm doing. I'm going to fight, my way. Support me or not, it's your choice.

Sometimes I hate life. Like, seriously.






Erin, thank you for the card. It was perfect. And it meant so much. You have no idea.

I am a castle.
There is a moat.
The drawbridge is up.

The Office --> couldn't have been better
Grey's Anatomy --> couldn't have been worse

Unfortunately, Grey's is later and therefore I am left in a mood of depression and bewilderment. I get too attached too easily. And this isn't even real life. UGH.

Hopefully I can sleep now.

So those of you who were close to me at Hillsdale probably heard my complain about my iTunes and how it would never let me update. Mark tried to fix it. Chase tried to fix it. Jared tried. Something was just being dumb and no one knew what was wrong. Well, you'd be proud of me. Last night while not being able to sleep, I finally got iTunes to update and install on my computer. I had my moment of glory,

....


and now the damn thing won't open. now I don't have any of my 10Gb music and the beloved thirteen nineteen volumes. If I can't get my music back, then...well...I'll be really upset. I can't live without my music. I just don't know what to do. ....Stephen?



Anyway, on to better things. I'm looking forward to a great night of season finales tomorrow, starting with the Office at 7:00 and then Grey's. Tonight I'm looking forward to the Suns beating the Spurs. Don't get me started on the Stoudemire Diaw suspension. I just hope it will serve as motivation and produce something incredible that we haven't seen from the series yet.

So I'm off.

happy birthday to annie
happy birthday to annie
happy birthday to annie
happy birthday to you!

happy 24th, big sister, i love you!